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Tuesday, July 23, 2013


Things have been a bit, well, shit. My mum is having more treatment, again, which means she'll soon be bald, again. My body has been behaving traitorously in numerous ways, most recently by puffing my tonsils up like popcorn. Our neighbourhood went on fire. Twice. And some other things. And a few more things. And, and, and. Bla, bla, bla.

While life has been stabbing me and my tonsils with the pricks of a thousand tiny needles, I've been wrapping myself in every soft thing I can find. I pull my words close like a blanket. Writing candidly feels like nakedness, writing fluff feels like a cop-out. So I write nothing. I read nothing. I feel nothing, or so I like to tell myself.

In the end, the simple pleasures are what save me. Bright colours on a sunny day. Friends from afar, bearing Pop-Tarts and penises (don't worry, they were free range). Skipping and shrieking into the North Sea, with only two dogs and handful of bewildered tourists for company. The final countdown to a dear friend's wedding. And did I mention the Pop-Tarts?

I'm still choosing my words carefully, weighing up which ones I can spare. Writing means thinking, and my thoughts have been otherwise occupied lately. Occupied with very important things, of course; like imagining ways to surf Pinterest for a living, and setting up Smidgen's Instagram account because apparently I'm now that level of crazy. (Seriously though, you should follow her. She's very photogenic.)

Other, less ridiculous thoughts are jostling their way to the surface. The words will follow. I'm almost sure of it. Stick around, won't you?


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  1. Linsey23 July 2013 at 08:21

    Look after yourself and your family. The words will come and we'll all still be here x

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  2. Penny23 July 2013 at 08:40

    Sending love. Keep your people wrapped tight around you. We'll keep the lights on til you pop back.

    Px

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  3. Amanda23 July 2013 at 09:38

    I hope it will all be better soon. Thinking of your mom. Drink lots of fluids and rest.

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  4. Moz23 July 2013 at 09:39

    It sounds like a *really* rough time, and I'm sorry for that.

    Great picture.

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  5. Unknown23 July 2013 at 10:22

    Look after yoursef please lovely. We'll all be here when you want to emerge x

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  6. Annie23 July 2013 at 11:15

    Sending good wishes + thoughts to u and your family. If the pop tarts are helping, go with it, we'll all be here when the words return x

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  7. jacqueline | the hourglass files23 July 2013 at 14:34

    Sending lots of love to you. I hope things turn around real fast, especially your mom's health. I'll be thinking of you.

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  8. SarahE23 July 2013 at 14:58

    I'm really excited about following Smidgen on Instagram. Unreasonably so.

    Pinterest and Smidgen pictures sound like perfect priorities right now, so good on you!

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  9. Amanda M23 July 2013 at 16:16

    Stick around? Always. Although I will be anxiously trying to fathom out those free-range penises but too chicken to click... I re-read that a couple of times to check I got it right as the first time I read this post I thought it was your TOENAILS which had puffed up like popcorn. Not sure which is worse really....

    Thinking of you and your mum (and determinedly NOT thinking free-range penises)

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  10. Unknown23 July 2013 at 16:18

    look after yourself honey, thinking of you and your family. im going to follow smidgen though this I bet will only lead to me setting one up for Seb!

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  11. Liz Rose Bowman23 July 2013 at 17:57

    Nothing wrong with admitting being in a physical and emotional funk, chin up, when you're Ready. XX

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  12. Anonymous23 July 2013 at 19:00

    Big hugs. Sometimes the silence is where we heal. -Jo

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  13. cara23 July 2013 at 19:43

    Oh Kirsty, I'm sorry. I'm sending all of my love to you and your beautiful family and most especially your mum. And I feel you on sparing your words, I'm rationing mine right now too. I'm not sure why other than that it hurts to think too hard at the moment.

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  14. Sarah Rooftops23 July 2013 at 22:30

    Sticking around. x

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  15. Kirsty | A Safe Mooring23 July 2013 at 23:06

    <3 <3 <3

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  16. Bex24 July 2013 at 08:16

    That is shit. Really shit. So sorry about all the shit. Glad you have a few things to try to distract you and I hope everything goes well with your Mum's treatment and the rest of life settles down for you. Big hugs! xxx

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  17. Nina24 July 2013 at 16:51

    I'm so sorry.

    I completely understand wrapping yourself in soft things and feeling nothing, wanting to share very little. I hope things start to look up soon.

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  18. Unknown24 August 2013 at 19:52

    I'm so sorry to hear about your mom, Kirsty. I know it's been a series of ups + downs for you guys and I just hate that. I remember when my mom was diagnosed with cancer, it was the most heart-wrenching time in all of our lives. Obviously, especially hers. I know I don't have to tell you to be there for your mom, I know you already are. But make sure to be there for you too. It's tough, I know. <3

    Thinking of you both!

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